Protecting Me from Me

I was a little sad. I didn’t get to see my brother today although I didn’t think I would.  Work was more than a touch frustrating as I couldn’t get past the anti-virus software and when I called the help desk they couldn’t help me since they didn’t know I was who I said I was….  Meaning I and my data was once again being protected from myself.  Annoying!   :(  I got a work around and the the computer gent promised to come and fix my computer tomorrow.  :) I got a bunch of stuff’s done and I am feeling more comfortable with my data which makes me really happy.  My cold front girl has totally warmed to me and that is great!   I have a new friend who wants to hang. But I am not sure that we are on the same page and that makes me feel REALLY awkward.  Going to have to drive that to closure before long – I think.  Tried to help an old friend a bit tonight with her resume but a way different industry so I made some suggestions. I just hope I was some what useful.  I still haven’t gotten paid from my weird little 3 week jobbie.  Just proving I made the right decision to boggie.  :-P  An old friend suggested reconnecting and I think I would like too but I will only really know how I feel about it once I do it and I feel weird about that I don’t know for sure now.  Going to have to practice speaking out loud.  That is always an experience.  :)

Anyway I better get some sleep!

All my love- Angie

I am back

I have heard that some people have missed my blog and I missed writing it.  I wrote to be honest to try and speak my truth.  As i have started to reconnect with my own world I have found it hard to write and be honest when i knew people were reading it.  I liked writing and trying to put words to my own emotions but as I knew other people saw it; I felt the weight of their opinions which makes feel like retreating back to a world of silence.  I was scared of putting myself out there and then having to recall it.  I also didn’t like it when people occasionally wanted me to talk about it.  But its time to stop working from a place of fear so I am back.  And here I go again…  :-)

I rented my apartment.  The location is not where that I wanted but I got very afraid of money so I decided to rent where I did and then next year come hell or high water – I move to my location.  I take possession of my apartment on the 27th.  I love my brother. I showed him my new place and my work and where I am staying.  In typical Markie fashion he was all in.  He told me about how great it was and how much I would love it and nothing else matters.  He is a great brother.  I got to see him work again and I was just as amazed as usual.  He is incredible.

All my love-

Angie

DAY 1, JOB 2

So…  Unfortunately, I can’t write to much cause I have to get to sleep.  Its been a long day.  Commuting, training, work, training, commuting, dinner and following up with life stuffs (prescriptions, housing, over bills).  Work was great. I think I am going to really love my boss.  He is SUPER nice and just expects people to work.  There are consequence when it doesn’t happen.  I already learned lots about batteries.  I have my own work space and I got locked out of the office once today but then I boggied down to security and got that fixed.  I better sleep.  Thanks to everyone’s well wishes today.  I can’t tell you how much that meant

All my love-

Angie

Can you believe?

Can’t believe this day is finally here; I start my 2nd job in 3 weeks tomorow.  I will get a place to go with co-workers and such.  I went to the store and got groceries so I should have food tomorow too (and a red bull if I get desperate).  I worked on finding a meet-up and some volunteer gigs (I think I signed up for some stuff). I did have a sad surprise of a $600 hotel bill that should have been charged to my co-worker. That i now have to get resolved.  I think this week will be my last call to Karen this week.  That freaks me out a bit too  :(  I miss the family and the wolfpack plus all of my friends.  I need to celebrate someone should come visit me ASAP.

Lots more tomorow after it happens.

All my love-

Angie