It’s been a long week. I haven’t slept in weeks and weeks because of my cat. I am tired and I have been waiting forever – waiting for things to change. I hate waiting for things to happens (new jobs, new houses) and others not too. Today was awful and I cried and cried. Just when I thought there were no more tears, there were more. I mis-read a situation and its been ages since I misread anything soooo badly. I got to experience something awful with my beautiful friend Patsy. You are TRULY amazing; don’t let anyone make you feel different. There is no one I would rather be stuck in a bag of crushed assholes with. You have more class than anyone I know. Baby Smithen is one lucky kid! You will be an amazing mom! :)
Today I got to see my friend Stevie P stand up for me, my angel Philbert love me no matter what, my sweet sweet Le Anna inspire me and remind me of my own greatness, and my truly amazing bro make me laugh. Plus my sister “Jenny”who always makes me feel loved with a word. I am reminded there are angles in the world for without them the world would lack color. Thank you for being you! I don’t know what I would do without you.
Thanks for talking to me in the middle of the night or day when I needed a pick me up.
All my love-
I let go of today and promise to love.
TO “LET GO” TAKES LOVE
by author unknown
To “let go” does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can’t do it for someone else.
To “let go” is not to cut myself off,
it is the realization I can’t control another.
To “let go” is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To “let go” is to admit powerlessness,
which means that the outcome is not in my hands.
To “let go” is not to try to change or blame another,
it is to make the most of myself.
To “let go” is not to care for,
but to care about.
To “let go” is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To “let go” is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To “let go” is not to be in the middle, arranging the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own destinies,
To “let go” is not to be protective,
but to permit another to face reality.
To “let go” is not to deny,
but to accept.
To “let go” is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings and to correct them.
To “let go” is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take every day as it comes, and to cherish myself in it.
To “let go” is not to criticize and regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To “let go” is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To “let go” is to fear less and love more.